⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ Some things I write about, could possibly be a trigger for some people. My aim with beginning this blog, is to try and help and support anyone who may be going through similar things.
Hello you beautiful people. My name is Robyn Sherman. I’m 27 and I live in the UK. I am a mother of two. Two beautiful amazing girls. I have my little pug companion named Frank,and two cats. Pie, and gypsy. We live in a beautiful village, half a mile away from the sea.
On the outside, looking in, my life seems perfect. And really, I suppose it is! I’m extremely lucky to have my little family. I’m extremely lucky to have my beautiful house and everything inside it. Unfortunately, my mind doesn’t always look at the positives. My mind likes to wander. Sometimes, it likes to go against me.
A few years ago, I was diognosed with depression and anxiety. I havnt had the easiest life. I have been through hell and back, I suppose you could say. Lots and lots of things have happened to me, that has shaped the person I am today. I will brush across a lot of this as I continue my blogs.
Mental Health, to me, is not spoken about enough. I personally struggle. Day to day. I have a fantastic network of support from family and friends. But having a mental health condition, is sometimes absolute hell!! Let’s be honest with ourselves. You could be in a room full of people, and still feel lonely. You don’t particularly want to tell anyone whats really going on inside your head, because you don’t want them to worry. You don’t want to be a burden. Because that’s how it feels. So you think the best thing to do, is to remain quiet. Smile. Laugh. Try and join in. And if your really good, it works! No one knows. Until your on your own again. Loneliness creeps in. You want so desperately to be around people. But you want so desperately to be around no one. Doesn’t make sense, does it? Mental Health can change you, as a person. Your mind will tell you things or make you feel things, that you don’t understand. Everyday, can seem like a battle. I clock watch most of the day, because I can’t wait until I can close my eyes and not have to think anymore. Thinking for me has become exhausting. My anxiety makes me overthink absolutely everything. Conversations I had 3 years ago with my friend. Or how this other person didn’t reply to my message. My brain goes… ‘Well done Robyn. You’ve upset them’. ‘Your annoying them, stop talking’. ‘No they don’t want to meet up for a coffee, they can’t stand you’.
Thanks mind! How is it possible, for something that is part of you, to keep destroying you?
In all honesty though, I recently had a complete breakdown. My Dr sent me to the hospital, and I was introduced to the mental health team. They have been fantastic. I was given some useful tips on how to handle my mental health. I was given phone numbers to call when things got tough again. They didn’t judge me. They didn’t assume things. They helped.
I was terrified at the thought of complete strangers, talking to me. But I actually found it easier than speaking to people who are involved with me.
I will leave it here for now, and talk some more soon.
If you are reading this, please, please, PLEASE, understand, that mentel health problems are tough. If you are struggling, please reach out to someone. I promise you that you are loved. You are wanted. Even if your own mind tells you otherwise.
I will leave below some resources that help me. Until next time. Please take care. Robyn xx
https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/
Robyn's Mental health journey 